Sunday, July 27, 2014

a singular sabbath and some dollar summer movie quotes

today was our last sunday at our ward in simpsonville. 
*reagan's snake of the day was a rattlesnake, for those keeping track of his personal snake collection. 
 it was a sad day. i said the opening prayer in in relief society so i would avoid end of church crying and i still bawled and gasped and sputtered and it was em-barr-assing(said in a multi-syllabic sing song voice). but for realz, i'm also ready to roll. let's do this. i will go, i will do. let's not drag it out by wallowing, right?

i'm so glad we lived here. i'd love to come back to live here again someday. it's been a wonderful place for our family. everywhere we have lived has helped us progress and come closer to Christ. i'm not who i was 4 years ago and i'm glad. my testimony has grown and i have felt love and my testimony has grown some more. "we rise to the amount of love we're shown." i heard that quote that while suffering through the smurfs 2 at the summer dollar movie. a dollar well spent! i've learned that sometimes to feel love you have to realize that it's not necessarily how you think you should receive it. we can't dictate what people should do for us or how they should love us. we will never be satisfied that way. that's selfish love. we have to accept love how it is given. i've learned more about having gratitude in all things. that's how i feel happiest. i feel most natural complaining about everything, but happiest when i choose to see the good. without gratitude, "we are filling a cup with no bottom"- kung fu panda 2! pow!

i hope it doesn't take the almost requisite year to discover my next batch of friends who love my kids and tolerate me(because being tolerated is all i care about if my kids make good friends). the people who have truly loved and served my children have done more for me than they probably realize. my cup runneth over. they have been an answer to prayers. not just prayers, but pleadings for love and accpetance. knowing that there are people who see the need to include my children when it is not always easy or convenient has blessed me and inspired me beyond measure. it has also shown me that i can do so much more for others than i currently am. talking about unity is all lip service until you are truly extending yourself to the lonely and friendless.  
(steps off soapbox,
back to regularly scheduled programming)

why is athena blythe so dang difficult during sacrament meeting? at one point i had her propped across my biceps and did some curls just to keep her from running out of the building. probably not the most reverent of activities but neither is the whisper yelling i was doing or rest of the stuff she wanted to do. she wholly rejects all quiet, religious based church activities or toys.

i finally broke down and let her go get her latest favorite obnoxious toy from the car, a naked, male army doll riding a horse. thomas jimmy-rigged the doll to stay on because that had become quite the issue.

unrelated,
scarlett's post church snack plate:
i later made a pan of my mom's famously fantastic blondies. there is no evidence besides my overstuffed stomach. 
the end.

4 comments:

Emily Curfew said...

" i've learned that sometimes to feel love you have to realize that it's not necessarily how you think you should receive it. we can't dictate what people should do for us or how they should love us. we will never be satisfied that way. that's selfish love. we have to accept love how it is given. i've learned more about having gratitude in all things. that's how i feel happiest. i feel most natural complaining about everything, but happiest when i choose to see the good. without gratitude, "we are filling a cup with no bottom"- kung fu panda 2! pow!"

MILLION DOLLAR THERAPY RIGHT THERE learned at the summer dollar theater.

Seriously, that is wonderful. Your words just solved an 8 year problem of mine!

Jessica said...

i'll be praying for you! every now and then it really is possible to make amazing friends almost right from the start. :) you can do this! you do hard things everyday!

HJolley said...

What a pretty sister I have. I am cheering for you with this move. I hope everything will go well.

I want to scarf Scarlett's snack plate. And then blondies. But only Mom's blondies because they are the only ones that have chocolate chips.

Rachelle Marshall said...

hi pretty! okay where are you moving to. i am just reentering blogland and cannot find the answer to this question as i peruse your amazingly hillarious blog. i adore your writing. i can hear you talking and i love that!!!!!